The past few days, I have been thinking a lot about what it means to be in a program.
You see, for all that I am going through with Boca, I am pretty much flying blind.
Although I have been around horses in one capacity or another for most of my life,
I was always a lesson student, a leasee, or an employee.
Now I am a horse owner, and I am responsible for making choices regarding diet, turnout, tack, treatment, etc. on my own, for the first time.
On one hand, I like educating myself and making decisions I feel comfortable with.
On the other hand, when I am chasing the underlying causes for an unwanted behavior, I am forced to rely on the kindness of strangers, and not decades of my own past experience.
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Admittedly, my few forays into being in a program with a trainer did not go well.
But right now, I am at a point that I feel like I am trying to beg, borrow, and steal information, opinions and resources from others. I admit to a small voice inside that wishes I had the framework of a program to rely on to set Boca and I up for success.
I look at those who are in good programs, with trainers that set them and their horses up for success, and I think if I ever had that opportunity and could afford it, I would jump at the chance.
For now, I will muddle through on my own, getting education and experience as best I can, and trying to make good decisions with the means that I have.